Our Family

It has been quite some time since I've posted and that has been due to some joys and sadness in our family. It's taken me a while to write this post but both Stevie and I feel that it is something we must do and want to do, without hesitation.

In the past several weeks we found out we were expecting our third child. Our family was filled with such joy and expectation and of course, like with most couples, the planning started immediately.

Sadly, I had a miscarriage and we lost our baby.

These last two weeks have been filled with grief and tears, ups and downs. Our family has been of great support to us as have my best friend Kerri and a few other dear friends.

Before I miscarried, I dreamt about our baby. In this dream, I saw our baby girl at age 3. Unlike my other two pregnancies, Stevie as well had a very strong feeling about the sex of this baby from the beginning and he felt she was going to be a girl.

Once I started miscarrying Stevie and I and our families and closest friends began praying hard. Several rosaries were said and we entrusted this child and her future to the Lord's mother as she too knows what it is like to suffer the loss of a child.

For whatever reasons beyond our understanding we will never be able to hold our baby girl or see her smile and hear her laughs. Judah and Levi will not be able to play with her or be big brothers to her here in this life. But we know without a doubt that she is in heaven with our Lord interceding on our behalf, her family here. We've named her María, after our Lord's blessed mother. There are some other things we intend to do privately as a family to recognize this sacred moment in our lives, but for us, writing about it on our family blog was an important part of the process.

Please pray for us and our healing and that in God's perfect time, he will allow us to participate with him in bringing another precious child to life.